You guys…I had to have a “big girl” conversation yesterday (as my good friend put it). While it wasn’t the easiest thing to do, it was the right one and in the end it went way better than I could have anticipated. You see, for the last several (almost 4) months, I’ve been interviewing with one of the most sought after companies in the world. It was a long process, something I didn’t even know existed until I was smack in the middle of it. How can one company take so long to make a decision on one person? I realize that the position was not a small one, that it holds a lot of responsibility and I suppose all parties involved wanted to be sure the right choice was being made. I don’t fault them for that. Actually, I thank them for it.
It was during that process that I decided to go back to school to get my coaching certification and I’m sure if they had made a quicker decision on hiring me, I would have probably taken the job and never found my calling. I probably could have cut the cord on the interview process a little sooner than I did but I also wanted to be absolutely certain I was making the right decision. I’m pretty sure if I had said I was 100% committed to the job and the career path I would have had an offer in a matter of days. I’m absolutely sure telling them I was not 100% committed was the right thing to do. There is someone out there who would give their left arm to work for such a great company, it’s just not me. I want to work for my own company, and when I realized that, nothing else mattered.
Some of my friends think I’m absolutely nuts for walking away from this opportunity, others think I’m spot on. I know this: you only get one chance at this life, and for me that means taking the risk right now to try something that’s a little out of my comfort zone. Something that scares the living hell out of me. Something that excites me and makes me jot down ideas in the middle of the night because I can’t stop thinking of the possibilities. Exciting things are happening over here and I could not be more at peace with my decision. I am thankful for the opportunity to have experienced even a glimpse inside the sacred doors and who knows, maybe our paths will cross at some point again. I know by exiting the situation the way I did, I made some new friends and burned zero bridges and that was the most important thing for me. I wanted to do the right thing for everyone involved.
The moral of this story for me is to continue to go with my gut and follow it through, because what I’ve started is a really good thing.